Tobby's Life

Well this morning I woke up at 6am and the stroll to the bathroom was the most painful yet.

I popped a painkiller and asked Brendan to come over as I could not make it down the stairs for food.

I was passed out by the time Brendan arrived at 7:15 and he brought me some food and coffee from Kofi – thanks a million.

After a message from Sandra aka Freddy she suggested I may have nerve or disc damage so I made a couple of calls to see what my options are in getting an MRI.  I spoke to one of my first clients who is a Nurse Practitioner, she agreed with the other doctors diagnosis – I will be sore for a while.  If after another 2 weeks there is no improvement thats when I should have an MRI.  Not to waste the money now.  But between now and then – some exercise, loads of ibuprofen and heat.

Working today I looked like a clown.. (I blame it on the painkillers)

Keeping it together.

Well after 10 days with no improvement in movement.  Stella has gone

To the doctor for X-rays.

Cross your fingers

This morning was planned to be a leisurely saturday ride.  I met an old neighbor Steve at the

Marilyn Statue.  At mile 9 we connected with Lourdes from the OC.  She is a triathlete and we had fun riding around the canyons.  Steve left earlier and i showed Lourdes Marilyn.

New Friends..

We then rode to Vista Las Palmas to ride some slight hills and finish off showing Lourdes, the  Trina Turk and Will Stiles stores.  Well I found the slick part of the road, then I was off the bike.  Wet, soil and concrete = gravel rash.

first serious fall

Lourdes was my angel today.  She made sure I got home safely.

The shadow represents those of have been watching over me

This is my first post on my new blog.  I am now on my own here, its almost 1 month to the day that Michael flew home to Brisbane.

Those of you close to me saw how the departure affected me emotionally.  I don’t want to dwell on the past, that’s water under the bridge, nothing can be changed.  The future can be changed in the now.

I will say that the past five weeks has seen me reach the lowest ever point in my life,  but with the support of my friends, family and this community I pulled through suicidal thoughts.   I have felt the gamut of emotions that life throws at you.  I can say I now feel transformed , a metamorphosis so to speak.  The darkness I felt represented the chrysalis I was cocooned in.   The love and support from those around fueled the process.  I have now emerged and can sit here breathing, blogging and living life again.   I am feeling emotions I thought I would never experience again.

In the darkness, I asked my parents to show me a sign and they did.  I now thank them for the life they gave me and for being my Angelz.  I will not take this life for granted.

I just want to say thank you to you all.