Life
The last 3 months life has been a blur. All I can say is this is not the path I would have chosen. Having lost both my parents, Michaels departure is also another loss in my mind. I don’t wish the heartache and sorrow I have felt in my life on anyone else.
I cannot begin to thank my counsellor in helping me the last 3 months. I have overcome anxiety attacks, suicidal thoughts, abandonment issues, fears, physical and emotional pain.
I would like to say I am over the bicycle accident but that is one thing yet to overcome. Everyday I now wake with back pain, and a dull ache in my pelvis. I wish I could wave a magic wand and have it go away, but that is not going to happen. Now that things have settled down somewhat I will seek physical therapy. I do worry the back pain is from the L5/S1 disc that in my MRI was noticed has having moderate to server degeneration. I can guarantee you the fall has made this worse.
Now that I am in somewhat of a routine with daily walks with Murphy and swims this pain may subside but I am not putting any bets on it.
On another note, I had my last counseling session last week the timing could not have been more perfect. I wanted to discuss how I had been recently smitten by a young gentleman. I know…. I was not planning on this situation arising but somehow it just happened. I have been told to look after myself first but ensure that I listen to what Tony has to say and ensure that he is listening to what I have to say. All I can say its is extremely refreshing and is good for the soul. Its times like this I know my parents are looking after me.